Alter Your Beliefs And Begin To Live A Migraine Free Life

I’m going to start by passing on some inspiring words of advice from the New York Times bestselling author, lifestyle entrepreneur and creator of The School of Greatness, Lewis Howes.

“Don’t downgrade your dreams to match your reality, upgrade your beliefs to match your vision”

Now that’s got you thinking huh? So tell me, have you put aside your dreams of having a family one day due to the never-ending cycle of migraines that seem to control your life? Have you accepted that ‘this’ is your life and have you resigned yourself to an eternity of pain because the doctors have told you so? Or have you decided that forever more you will just have to ‘manage’ your condition and give up on chasing your dreams.

Well I’ll admit, these were my thoughts back in the darkest depth of my illness and I am sure they are something that all migraineurs can relate to. Now, after escaping the clutches of chronic migraine and regaining my life, I often get asked “So how did you do it? What actually got rid of your migraines”? As I have explained in previous blogs, I have found that a balance of self-care, creating realistic boundaries, a clean plant-based diet, meditation, visualisation, stress management and appropriate exercise have all contributed to me becoming free from chronic migraines.

However the underlying and absolutely essential aspect that propelled these factors in to healing my body was actually my belief system. I could have done all of the above absolutely perfectly, to the text-book in fact but with very different results and do you know what the differentiating factor is? My belief!

Did you know that only 3% of our brains processing power is controlled by the conscious mind which means that a whopping 97% is controlled by the sub-conscious mind! Crazy right? So basically what I am telling you is no matter how many times you tell yourself out loud “I will not let these migraines beat me” unfortunately you could repeat this until you are blue in the face but nothing will change as it lies within the 3%. In order to actually alter your belief system and therefore start seeing healthy change happen, you need to tap in to the 97%.



Ok, so how do you re-programme the subconscious mind then? By everyday committing to change, to beating your diagnosis, to doing what they told you wasn’t possible, to chasing your dreams and through sheer hard flippin’ work. It doesn’t come in pill form either; this takes time, patience and most of all determination to never ever give up.

Since April 2016 I began using Dr Joe Dispenza’s meditations daily in order to change my belief system. When I first began and was really sick, I listened to his hour long meditations 3 times a day and through relaxing the mind I would enter the alpha state which is where you are able to influence and re-programme the sub-conscious mind.

The meditations ask me “What is the belief and perception that you want to change about yourself in your life? And do you want to continue believing and perceiving in this way?” and every day I would repeat the same. “That I am destined to live a life in pain and never get better and no, I don’t want to continue believing in this way” and as the days went by and I visualised my perfect existence over and over again, my confidence began to grow, my actions started to reflect my words and my beliefs began to change.

Tears would stream down my face as I basked in the pure bliss in my life as I dreamt it, totally lost in the emotions of love, gratitude and immense joy for feeling completely healthy again. I would envisage myself running a marathon, owning a successful health related business, travelling the world and starting a family. I would regularly see our little girl (Florence I named her) with blond curly locks and blue eyes playing in our garden without a care in the world whilst me and my husband would look on so in love with her.

And the funny thing is now that my dreams are actually starting to manifest before my very eyes. Very exciting business opportunities have come my way, amazing holidays are booked in our diaries, I am now 3 months completely migraine free and I’ve recently started to exercise again, in particular going jogging.

So suddenly that little girl playing in the garden feels within reach in the not so distant future. As I write this yet more tears roll down my face as I feel so passionate about passing this knowledge onto others who think that life is hopeless, pain stricken and lost forever. It’s not, no matter what the doctors tell you. Apparently there is no cure for chronic migraines, I would beg to differ.

My message to you is this. Your mind is your biggest tool in healing yourself and living the life you dream. When you commit everyday to creating new beliefs your body has no choice but to follow and you CAN and WILL get there. You are enough, you are powerful, you are stronger than you ever imagine and can achieve anything you set your mind to. All you have to do is believe. Sure it won’t happen overnight and it requires some serious hard work but I promise you that it will be worth it.

On that note, I’ll leave you with some more words of wisdom from the inspiring Lewis Howes.

“You become what you envision yourself being…”

And by god he is right!

#DrJoeDispenza #LewisHowes #Beliefs #Mindset #Determination


The Inside Scoop On Dr Joe Dispenza’s Progressive Workshop

My god, where on earth do I start? I have to be honest, I’ve almost been dreading writing this blog which is not like me at all. I have felt such pressure to do Dr Joe justice in explaining the content of his work and how incredibly inspiring his workshop was, it’s so hard to put the experience into words, which isn’t exactly helpful when trying to write a blog!

Anyway, before I talk about the workshop I need to give you a little bit of background information regarding Dr Joe and my history with his meditations.

So in very, very, very, very basic terms, by combining the latest neuroscience and quantum physics, Dr Joe Dispenza teaches you how you can rewire your brain and re-condition your body to heal from illness and live a more fulfilled and happy life through the power of daily meditations. If you want to know more I suggest you purchase a copy of his latest book “You Are The Placebo” as it is impossible to even touch the surface on the incredible work he does. Trust me, you will not be disappointed!

So re-winding slightly, me and Dr Joe used to be friends, no, in actual fact when we first met we were the BEST of friends and totally inseparable (metaphorically speaking of course!). He used to come with me everywhere and I would listen to his hour long meditations sometimes up to two or even three times a day when I was at my worst. The more I saw results the more I took the time out every day to create a new migraine free future for myself.

Dr Joe gave me oodles of confidence and my health hugely improved, so much so that he made me believe I could do absolutely ANYTHING! So I decided to take his word for it and travel to the other side of the world to celebrate my 30th birthday with the girls in the City that never sleeps. Yep, you guessed it… Las Vegas! To make a long story short my trip was a total and utter disaster and I remained bound to our hotel room for the entire time as I bounced from a migraine, to tension headache, and back to a migraine again. From that point onwards me and Dr Joe had a falling out, quite a big one in fact, and we stopped talking for a while. So that’s why I took a break from his meditations as unfortunately I lost my belief in the process.

Looking back now I think I might have been just a tad over ambitious in going half way around the world to the 40 degree heat, with a twelve-hour time difference with nights of drinking and partying planned. I know, I know, one step at a time right. #Lessonlearnt! So my aim for the workshop was to rediscover my belief in Dr Joe and his work, and to leave at the end of the two days filled with the passion and enthusiasm that I had when I originally started his meditations.


So the event was held over two days in London. Well actually it was two and a half days fit into two days so lets just say we started early and finished late on both days. As we arrived at the hotel I felt this wash of excitement sweep over my body in anticipation for what was about to come. My Mum and I found ourselves some seats, made a few new friends and took a couple of moments to soak up the electric atmosphere that filled the room. There was something very special about being surrounded by 700 like-minded, positive, open, spiritual people who had either healed themselves through meditation or believed that healing WAS possible. I really felt this lovely sense of belonging there.

Throughout the workshop we covered everything I had previously learnt through reading his books and watching his YouTube videos but in a hell of a lot more detail. And I mean A LOT more detail. If you hadn’t done your homework then you would have been left behind in a flash wondering what on earth he was going on about.

Dr Joe delved deeper in to the science behind the meditative states such as alpha, beta and theta and explained in detail the brain scan results of students that had participated in his workshops and how their daily meditations had literally changed their brains and consequently their lives. He talked so passionately about how the thoughts you think produce the same pharmacy of chemicals, which then produce the same feelings which then signal the same genes to create over and over. So in order to change our future we need to think greater than we feel. Does that make sense? You have to get beyond your body and go to no place, in no time, in nowhere, where you are nothing so that you can start over from scratch and create the new you that you dream of. If I’m now talking absolute gibberish then you will have to read his book as it will make a lot more sense. I’ve always struggled with this area previously but the workshop hugely help me to understand it on a much deeper level.

We also partook in numerous meditations which normally lasted around an hour. These ranged from teaching us how to bless our energy centres to how to change the beliefs and perceptions that no longer serve us. He even demonstrated to us how to bring your mind up and out of the body which is an experience I will never forget.

His warm friendly character shone throughout and in-between all the science talk he managed to include references to his family and children that he was obviously so proud of. He came across as such a genuinely lovely guy, as well as being an absolute frickin’ genius! To keep our energy up throughout the day we would return from breaks to see Dr Joe and his assistant onstage dancing to an array of feel good songs. Being in the middle of 700 hundred dancing souls lost in the music was a feeling I shall never forget.


At the end of the weekend I can honestly say I left feeling truly inspired by Dr Joe himself, his work and most of all his passion to help others heal from illness and create the life they dream of. I couldn’t wait to get home and start my meditations again as I knew there would be no stopping me this time. Thank you Dr Joe for giving me hope when I thought all was lost and for continuing to do the incredible work you do.

One day it will be me standing up at workshop explaining how I no longer suffer from migraines and they are just a thing of the past.

#DrJoeDispenza #ProgressiveWorkshop #Healing #Mind #Body #Meditation



A Positively Colourful Two Weeks!

Now let’s see, where did I leave off from my last blog? Ah yes, I was taking everything back to basics after becoming completely confused as what to do for the best anymore. Enough was enough, it was time to take what I had learnt over the past few years and use what had worked and disregard what hadn’t. I needed to stop getting consumed by sudden “miracle cures” and follow what I knew worked deep down. And funnily enough, after all this searching it tended to be the simple things in life.

As I began my week I sought out my trusty gratitude journal and set out to make an entry every morning to start my day off with a grateful heart. In the end, after having a few busy days I would just say it out loud in my head when going about my morning routine. I realised I had recently spent so much time looking over the fence at what I didn’t have in my life, that I had totally forgotten just how many beautiful blessings I do have. Ok, it may not be perfect right now but really, whose life is? Sometimes I think Facebook has a lot to answer for as we all parade our lives only at their best and never at their worst. You very rarely hear about how you are distraught from your latest argument with your boyfriend that you don’t trust or how you hate your job and will each day to be over. Don’t worry, I’m guilty of this too, but for that reason I’ve tried to cut down on my Facebook time these past two weeks to try to become more grounded with reality.

I finally managed to get back to some gentle yoga classes that did me the world of good. My body needed to stretch and feel alive again whilst my mind really appreciated the hour of calm and serenity I experienced. Unfortunately I think some of the classes led me to visit my trusty friend the Chiropractor due to some muscle tension I was experiencing, but the doctor explained that initially I will experience some pain when I exercise again as my neck muscles are so weak. However she did give me some exercises I could do to work on this.

I also managed to get back to doing some volunteering work for the charity Feline Friends. They host monthly adoption days in which we try and find our furry friends a forever home. It felt so good to socialise with the other crazy cat ladies after missing out on the last few adoption days. In addition to this, (to my husbands delight), I volunteered to be an emergency fosterer to a kitty that had been picked up off the streets and desperately needed a temporary home. Now how could you say no to this face?


Well exactly, I couldn’t, so little Maria made herself at home in our spare bedroom. After all, they do say that cats are therapeutic. So in effect it’s a form of healing I would say. Well that’s what I told my husband anyway!

After being angry at Dr Joe Dispenza for not delivering me the perfect America trip, let’s just say we weren’t on speaking terms. I know this is silly as it was a HUGE ask, but Dr Joe had made me believe that anything was possible. Ok, it didn’t go so well but before my holiday his meditations had really given me such a boost in confidence, so much so that I started to believe that my life could be pain free again, and it was actually happening. After reflecting on this, I decided to start doing his meditations again and I am pleased to say they have really helped. Suddenly I am beginning to feel like I hold the power again to my recovery, which has felt wonderful.

The biggest change I’ve made was to my diet. Here is an example of what I have been eating;

Wake up – No more tea for me and instead a lovely glass of either cucumber or celery juice!

Breakfast – A smoothie normally consisting of a banana, apple, almonds, chia seeds, spinach and water.

Morning snack – Homemade banana and walnut bread, an apple with some almond butter or an egg.

Lunch – A large salad full of spinach, cucumber, tomatoes, beetroot, seeds and quinoa, nuts along with a variations of pomegranates, mango, apricots or apple.

Afternoon snack – Another fruit and spinach smoothie or some homemade quinoa and chia seed bread.

Dinner – On the days my husband is away I’ll eat completely vegan and when he returns we vary from meals with meat and fish. He has also enjoyed a couple of my Vegan dinners, which is surprising, considering he is South African!

After dinner snack – If I’m still hungry I’ll have some yogurt with some more nut butter or raw honey.

I have to say eating mostly Vegan has been a lot easier than I thought. However I presumed that by eating no wheat, no grains, no carbs and a small amount of dairy that the pounds would of drop off me, but no, quite the opposite in fact. I don’t own scales but my jeans definitely don’t lie, that’s for sure! It puzzled me for a while as to why but I suddenly realised that I was eating alot of nuts. And I mean ALOT of nuts. I then read somewhere that you should only consume five almonds in one day! Ops, well considering most days my husband has found me with my head in the fridge eating almond butter out of the jar I think I might have found the culprit. Let alone also having nuts in my smoothies, snacks and sprinkled on lunch. Ok I admit it! “My name is Christie and I have an addiction to almond butter!” Now its time to step away from the nuts for a while I think.

Ok, so i’ve put on a few pounds which of course never makes a girl feel good about herself but the funny thing is, that for the first time in a long time i’ve had two weeks majority headache and migraine free! So whats better? A few extra pounds with this new  diet and no pain? Or being a size 10 but still suffering? For now i’m just happy that I’m feeling good and thats the most important thing. I’d love to get back to the skinny old me “pre illness  e” that would fit three body attack classes in a week and had real defined abs that I could see. But that’s not me anymore and it also doesn’t represent the journey I have been through. You know how when mothers give birth and their scars represent the bravery, courage and pain they have endured to bring a beautiful life in to the world? Well I look at it the same in a funny sort of way. All that I am now is because of what I have been through and I should be proud of that instead of being embarrassed by the fact my bikini body isn’t exactly perfect.

Another exciting aspect to the two weeks has been that I started my life coaching course which has been great. It’s given me a new focus thats something other than my head and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed studying and learning something completely new. It’s going so well that I even got an A on my first assignment!

So I can say right now i’m in a good place being grateful for all that I have in my life, grateful for my body getting me to this point in my journey and grateful for every healthy day I am blessed with. Life is suddenly starting to look so very beautiful again…

#Health #Nutrition #Simplethings #Meditation #Yoga #Voluntering #Vegan #BodyProud

Dubai to Las Vegas! What the hell was I thinking?

So after the fantastic results I had experienced from Dr Joe Dispenza’s meditations, I found that my confidence was at an all time high and I felt as if I was able to conquer what ever challenge may arise. It’s no wonder really, as after experiencing very few migraines (and the one’s I did have were so incredibly mild), I finally began to feel like I was the one in control again, and I was no longer the puppet in this never-ending game.

That said, me and the girls I went to college with who I have remained friends with after all these years, had been planning a trip to Las Vegas to celebrate all of our 30th birthdays together. For a long time during the lead up I didn’t think it would be possible for me to attend, but since starting Dr Joe’s meditations I had this new-found confidence that assured me that I could do this. I felt empowered and like I could conquer absolutely anything I set my mind to so as long as I kept my meditations up and I didn’t lose focus. From then on most of my meditations were concentrated around picturing myself with the girls in Vegas enjoying every single second like a “normal” person would. I saw us out in packed clubs dancing the night away to Calvin Harris, in uncontrollable fits of laughter as we usually are and sunning ourselves with a cocktail in hand at various pool parties. Oh unfortunately how wrong I would be…

My journey started in Dubai in what would be one hell of a journey. It didn’t really hit me until I gazed at my onboard screen that I was literally flying half way around the world! With 15 hours 20 minutes minuets as the flight time, I settled into my seat and took the journey in my stride. After three-hour long meditations, several naps and way too much aeroplane food later, I arrived in Los Angeles completely headache free! I couldn’t believe it! Feeling proud of myself and full of confidence for the week ahead I waited in the hustle and bustle of the busy LAX airport for my lovely friend Sarah to pick me up.

Considering there was an eleven hour time difference I actually managed to get a full nights sleep on the first night which I believed would greatly set me up for the day ahead. As we headed into LA and cruised around viewing the sights, I started to feel that ominous feeling come over me, that feeling that I truly dread. Yes, it was my worst fear coming to fruition. A migraine! That evening as I lay tucked up in bed, the tears uncontrollably ran down my face as all I could feel was disappointment throughout my body. With Vegas just three days away it suddenly dawned on me that maybe this wouldn’t be the trip I had played out in my meditations over and over again.

For the next few days I’ll be honest, I really struggled. I don’t know if it’s just me or if other migraineurs can relate to this, but when I am in an attack I feel I just want to be at home in my safe cocoon of a house with all the comforting essentials necessary to see me through the pain. I didn’t deal with the situation very well and I feel I put my family and husband through a lot of stress worrying about me. I am really going to try in future to deal with situations better on my own as it’s not fair on them. However my friends were there to look after me and nothing was too much trouble for them. It’s times like that you really know who your true friends are.

So the day had arrived. Las Vegas here we come! Feeling as if I was now in the post migraine stage I felt positive as we left for the airport. At just an hours flight down the road surely this was going to be pretty straight forward and headache free? However by the time we arrived and had battled the TSA cue’s and I had navigated finding my friend after arriving in different terminals, we finally arrived (in what weirdly felt like a long day) at the beautiful Palazzo hotel in the heart of the strip. The energy and buzz felt exactly how I remembered it from all those years ago of endless trips here from my flying days as cabin crew for Virgin Atlantic. What amazing memories I had made over the years! As the evening approached and we sat on our beds gossiping and catching up, it started to dawn on me that there was no way I would be able to go out tonight with the girls. The pain started to worsen and the pulsing in my head just reaffirmed to myself that it was going to be a night in for one! Disappointed of course, I donned my PJs’ as I heard the girls discussing their outfit choices and shoe options as I tried to drift off to sleep, whilst feeling as though I had failed once again.

The next morning to my dismay, the pain was still there. Not sure whether this was the normal post migraine neck and shoulder tension, I set off to try to find a cheap massage somewhere nearby. With the temperature outside at 45 degree’s, the smoky packed casino’s surrounding me and what felt like a mile walk to remotely get some kind of food that wouldn’t cause me another migraine, I started to panic that maybe Las Vegas wasn’t the right place for me. I had come to realise, only through taking this trip on that there are certain things I still need to maintain my health. For example, the ability to cook my migraine free food and avoid takeaways, a full eight hours of sleep a night, time to meditate and a space to myself so I can take time-out when I need it. Suddenly with the pain worsening and feeling so far away from home, I wondered what the hell I had been thinking? I guess if I hadn’t tried it I would have always been wondering “what if”? I have learnt over the past few years that sometimes you need to take a leap in to the unknown and step outside of your comfort zone, but unfortunately this was a few steps too far.

After the weekend in Vegas my confidence was at it lowest possible. I felt I had completely failed and the trip that I played over in my mind couldn’t have been further away from reality I endured. I even found myself feeling angry at Dr Joe as I felt he installed this unwavering belief in me that anything was possible, but in reality it wasn’t. I felt like he had lied to me. From then on I really struggled to do my meditations and even now I am finding hard to connect in them. I am hoping I will get this back overtime when I start to see some improvement in my health again. As other migraineurs will understand, after a bad period it takes time to build your confidence up again and that’s exactly how I feel now. Will I be able to get back to the great place I was in before I left? I’m honestly not sure right now, but I hope so. I am trying each day to get there but I am still suffering so it’s hard to stay positive sometimes.

Despite this, I did my best to enjoy the moments that I could and simply laugh with the girls. On the last night we had a birthday party in our room and decorated the place with streamers and balloons. As I helped the girls get ready for the night ahead I found myself smiling to myself and thinking just how lucky I am to have such incredibly supportive friends and family that love me no matter what. Headache or no headache! They love me for me.



It’s in tough times that you learn who your true friends are!

Love you all Britter’s and happy 30th birthday to us! We missed you Ione, Danielle and Lauren. Here’s to another 10 years of friendship together!

#MyJourney #Travel #Migraine #LasVegas #UpsAndDowns #Friends #LosAngeles

My incredible results after 8 weeks of Dr Joe Dispenza’s meditations

I cannot believe it’s been eight weeks already since I read “You are the Placebo” and began Dr Joe’s daily healing meditations. Previously when I have tried new therapies my enthusiasm has tended to dwindle over time and I’ve lost interest when I haven’t seen results, but this time it has been completely different! No word of a lie, I have stuck to it religiously and I’m actually really proud of myself for that. There was only one day in the eight weeks in which I couldn’t fit in two meditations as recommended by the book. Apart from that I always managed to do both meditations daily and sometimes I have even fitted in a sneaky third! It didn’t matter whether I was on a plane, a train, at home, or away, I always made sure I plugged my headphones in, donned my eye mask and committed myself to Dr Joe’s meditations.

I have witnessed some amazing changes in myself over the past eight weeks so I thought it would be beneficial if I were to summarise these for you!

  1. Dramatically less Chiropractor visits

During the month of March I visited the chiropractor five times due to the tightening up of my neck and shoulder muscles, which is the usual result of a migraine. In April I began Dr Joe’s meditations and since then I have had only one visit to the chiropractor per month! Just one! I couldn’t believe it myself. I knew that it had become a belief of mine that I MUST see a Chiropractor after every migraine as otherwise my neck and shoulder muscles would remain tight and result in a daily headache. However by using my meditations I have started to challenge this belief and visualize myself post migraine without needing this treatment and recovering fully, completely chiropractor free! You could say that this therapy had become my kind of comfort blanket and a quick fix to my problem, but this has proved to me that maybe this had become a habit, which ultimately had evolved in to a belief! So seeing the Chiropractor once a month is totally acceptable in my mind as “normal people” still get aches and pains don’t they? The second reason why my visits have decreased is due to the fact the intensity of my migraines have weakened, resulting in less neck and shoulder pain, hence far fewer visits to the Chiropractor.

2. Reduced Anxiety

Most people who suffer with migraines will agree that anxiety plays a huge part in your day-to-day life. It’s easy enough to say “try not to worry about a migraine coming on” but that’s easier said than done. On reflection anxiety and negative self talk is really just you worrying and imagining the worst case scenario coming true, but what I have found is by doing my meditations I am programming my brain only to see the best case scenario. Which in turn, has hugely reduced my daily anxiety and has given me more confidence in myself, which leads me on to my next point very nicely.

3. A new-found confidence

As Dr Joe suggests, do your first meditation soon after you wake, that way you have a strong foundation for the day ahead. I have found by doing this it fills me with confidence to tackle whatever the day should present to me. Sometimes in my meditations I picture myself several years in the future, but most of the time my morning meditation tends to focus on the challenges I may face in the upcoming day or week ahead. By playing the situation I consider challenging over in my meditation and by tackling it in my visualization with ease, this then fills me with a sense of confidence that I’ve never felt before. Previously my day may began with anxiety and apprehension, however now my morning meditation sets me up with a sense of optimism and positivity.

     4. Migraine intensity weakened

Over the past two years as my recovery has progressed, I have noticed the overall intensity of my migraines slowly decreasing. During my darkest days the pain was unbearable, but over time this has started to lessen. An average migraine intensity before starting Dr Joe’s meditations would have been maybe a 5/10 on the pain scale, and the migraine would last usually 3-4 days. However since beginning my meditations in April, I can honestly say my pain could only be possibly classed as just a 2/10! No word of a lie! This is incredible for me and is probably the biggest change I have noticed in the last eight weeks. So much so that the migraines I have had have lasted just 1-2 days. Hard to believe I know! I have come to the conclusion that by doing my meditations and by picturing and feeling myself in the future completely migraine free, this helps the relaxations response in my body which aids the heeling process. Also before discovering Dr Joe’s meditations I realised that the more I meditate during a migraine the quicker it disappears. So I usually up Dr Joe’s meditations to three times daily during a migraine (equivalent to nearly three hours of meditation), which surely has such a positive effect on my body.

5. A NO medication migraine!

At the beginning of this journey if you had told me that in eight weeks time you will be able to get through a migraine with absolutely no pain killers, no Triptans and no use of Cefaly, I wouldn’t have believed you. But it actually happened! As the migraine came on I did my usual routine of meditating and remaining as calm and relaxed as possible. As the day passed it dawned on me that I hadn’t needed my usual remedies! Bed time approached and my mind started to race and I started to question whether or not I should just take a Triptan, as that’s what I am used to doing, but I decided not. I had never experienced a migraine as mild as this before, so for some reason I decided to trust myself and my body and see what would happen if I were not to take anything. The very next day the feeling slowly subsided! I honestly couldn’t believe it! Now if that’s all the power the migraine’s have behind them anymore then I am definitely winning this fight!

So to anyone out there struggling with some sort of illness, disease or pain that you have been told is “incurable” or “you just have to live with”, I ask you to open your mind to another form of medicine and purchase a copy of Dr Joe Dispenza’s book “You are the Placebo”. Don’t get me wrong, you have to make the time to do the meditations and commit to it, but the rewards I have seen have been worth every single second of the time I have devoted! Thank you Dr Joe for the incredible changes I have witnessed over the last eight weeks!


#Healing #Meditation #DrJoeDispenza #Change #SelfHealing #Mindset #MyJourney

“Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me!”

After writing my latest blog “Is a belief only true because you believe it so”? I had a wave of negative comments stating that “migraine is a neurological disease” and it simply cannot be cured or wished away. I am so used to hearing this now, but I’m sorry, I’m not going to accept this because I am living proof that there IS another way! Dr Joe Dispenza has hundreds of testimonials of people who have healed themselves using his meditation practice from all forms of cancer, chronic pain disorders and even paralysis! So if they can heal themselves then why can’t I?

I wish that the people who criticise my blogs could see that I am just a normal girl who is trying to help others, as I know how bad it feels to be lost in that world of pain with what seems like no way out. I am not trying to make you feel bad for the pain you are suffering, exactly the opposite actually. I have lived that life and it’s a very dark place to be. Surely by expressing my story and how this has dramatically changed my life in just eight weeks is a good thing? and could inspire someone suffering that there is hope! Would it hurt to open your mind to a possibility of another form of treatment? After all, what have you got to lose?

This week I have made huge progress watching my health improve day by day, which again just goes to prove that this IS possible and I AM bettering my health! Disease or not! (My next blog will document all the changes I have seen in the last 8 weeks so watch this space!) Whilst scrolling through the internet today this song “Fight Song” by Rachel Platten popped up and it brought me to tears! It was almost as if I had written the words myself and I could not help but sing along to the words with passion, determination and a sense of “I will prove you wrong”.

Just as the song quotes “And I don’t really care if nobody else believes, ‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me…”

Click here for the link to play the song


Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (in too deep)
And it’s been two years
I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe

And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

This is my fight song (Hey!)
Take back my life song (Hey!)
Prove I’m alright song (Hey!)
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong (I’ll be strong)
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me

No I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me!

#Determination #Strength #Belief #Mind #Dedication #Fight #Health #MyJourney

Holiday VS Headaches


After my incredible recent experience in which I managed to stop a migraine dead in its tracks during one of Dr Joe Dispenza’s meditations, suddenly I had this new found confidence which made me question just what my mind was potentially capable of. It was only a few weeks ago that I discovered the book “You are the Placebo” and since then I truly feel like I am transforming as a person every single day. In fact I know I am, as the results so far have been truly remarkable.

This meant with my 30th birthday fast approaching (mild panic and slight chest palpitations!), I was so looking forward to a week of complete and utter relaxation on the beautiful island of Mauritius with my husband. Zen time here we come…
Now I don’t know how other migraineurs have faired with flying, but I have previously struggled with this. Perhaps it’s the dehydration or sitting in one position for a prolonged period of time that tenses up my neck and shoulders muscles. So for a while I used to dread getting on an airplane. This is quite ironic considering my husband is a pilot, I used to be cabin crew and we now live in Dubai! Anyhow, things were completely different this time around. Before we commenced our trip I had visualised our journey to Mauritius so many times over and over in my meditations, only imagining a day headache free, and would you believe it… it was exactly that! Even despite only having four hours sleep the night before due to what we will just call a case of “Delhi Belly”! (I have no idea where I got that from!) Anyhow, I have always found that any kind of upset to my sleep pattern that gives me less than my required eight hours a night, has previously meant that I I would have no option but to crawl back in to bed and write the day off as what I would call a “tired head” kind of day. Despite all of this, we arrived in Mauritius after a very long day completely and utterly headache free! Well my husband not so much, however I think that might have had something to do with his red wine consumption perhaps? Now if that isn’t a sign that my meditations are working and I’m changing my brain then I have no idea what is!

So we arrived in Paradise!


It didn’t take long for us to navigate to the nearest sun bed, open a good book and switch into relax mode. Exactly what we both needed! At the beginning of the week I felt on cloud nine. For so long I have lived with this anxiety and fear of a migraine coming on, which I now know keeps you in that cycle, however by doing my daily meditations leading up to the holiday it had removed any doubts or worries I had. My new found confidence that I had discovered in the previous weeks led me to create new memories, have new experiences and as Dr Joe says “create a new me”! So that’s exactly what happened. These may be small things to other people but to me they were huge. I found myself trying the foods I “believe” cause me migraines, being able to sit directly in the sun for several hours at a time, spending full days outside and sampling an alcoholic drink or two which I had almost become scared of! As I lay on my sun bed looking around at the other couples enjoying their holidays, it suddenly dawned on me that I was what I call “a normal person” again! I was one of them!
I continued to do my daily meditations, normally back in our room after breakfast and in the afternoon when the weather tended to cloud over. Some hit the spot and others not so much but I am learning that you’re not always going to have an amazing meditation and that’s ok! A few days into our holiday as I was on such a roll, I even made a visit to the gym! You heard me right, the gym! Knowing I should take it easy as this was my first visit in god knows how long I attempted a little cycle, a brisk walk on the treadmill and then a few yoga moves just to keep my muscles loose. Unfortunately the following day I was paying for my little visit in the form of tight neck and shoulder muscles. Why oh why does the gym seem to hate me so much? Well being realistic I’ve been through this before and I’ve realised that Yoga and Pilates are best and only form of exercise for me at the moment, so I think it’s best to stick to that.
After dwelling on this for a while I decided I needed to get myself back on track. My meditations then focused around seeing my neck muscles relaxed, laughing and enjoying my holiday again with my husband and seeing us without a care in the world. The old me would have “believed” that nothing could have cured this other than a trip to the Chiropractor, given up on the week and accepted the pain but no, not the new me! That belief no longer exists in my mind and it’s quite incredible that after a few days I was back to exactly where I was before! Feeling like a “normal person” again and able to enjoy the rest of our holiday to the fullest. Don’t get me wrong, by no means was my health perfect that week, but I am learning all the time on this journey and every day is another step forward. I know those changes may look like small victories to you, but to me this is changing my beliefs, which in turn is changing my life right before my very eyes… Thanks once again Dr Joe!

 #Holiday #Mauritius #Believe #Meditation #Healing #Journey #HopeVsHeadaches



How on earth did that just happen Dr Dispenza?

As you all probably know by now, I have committed myself to doing Dr Joe Dispenza’s daily healing meditations for what’s been nearly a month now. He recommends doing the meditations twice daily, once in the morning and once in the evening however on days when I have had the time I have been fitting in a sneaky third meditation on top. I figure why not? The more I can do the better, right? As surely it’s only going to speed up the healing process and propel me towards my goal even faster. I have done this religiously, not missing a single session. Initially I wondered how this would work around my day, but I’ve learnt if you want something bad enough, you will always make the time.

So I have to tell you about an experience I had the other day during one of my meditations. I’ll do my very best to explain what happened in words, but the truth is I cant explain what happened myself! I’d love to be able to pick up the phone and give Dr Joe Dispenza a call to pick his brain on my incredible meditation experience. I guess I’ll have to wait until October to ask him in person!!! Yes, I am actually going to meet Dr Joe himself as my Mum and I decided to booked on to his two and a half day progressive workshop in October right here in London. By that time; I worked out; I would have done his meditation over 370 times! I watch his workshops video’s on YouTube all the time and I can’t believe I am actually going to be participating in one! Of course I will blog the whole thing for you all to follow.


Anyway, back to what happened the other day. As I mentioned before there are three parts to his meditations:

  • First comes the relaxation section whereby your brain waves enter the Alpha state to allow better access to your subconscious mind.
  • You are then guided to enter a state where by you are no body, no thing, in no time and no place (You are just simply energy floating in space! Well that’s how I picture it).
  • Finally you are asked to change a belief about yourself and are guided through the emotion you would feel if your belief weren’t true anymore.

Now I have to explain at the time of this meditation I had a migraine, don’t get me wrong it wasn’t the worst one i’ve ever had, but it was still a migraine. During the meditation I found myself really struggling with the first two sections. We all know by now that meditation is good for migraines, for prevention and during an attack, despite this it’s actually a very uncomfortable and hard place to be when meditating with a full-blown migraine. You know when you feel unwell in someway, and just for a few moments you become totally absorbed into say a TV programme and suddenly your pain seems to just totally disappear for those moments. But as soon as your focus comes away from the distraction, your symptoms come back! I find distraction during a migraine can be highly effective but during meditation you are doing completely the opposite of this and you are alone with every aspect of the pain you are feeling. It’s just you, your breath and the throb of the migraine.

The feeling was becoming hard to bear, so much so that I thought about ending the meditation on several occasions to go in search for a migraine tablet, as my pain only seemed to be getting so much worse. My god I am SO glad I didn’t! As I emerged into the final section of the meditation, the belief I had chosen to change was “I will always suffer with migraines”. From that point onwards my response to this was particularly emotional, perhaps it was because I was actually in a migraine at the time so seeing my life completely migraine free struck a cord with me more than usual. Suddenly I became lost in such an intense visualisation, picturing myself full of vitality and life travelling the world with my husband, crossing the finish line to a marathon, starting my own business and finally, the one that hit me the most, starting a family with my husband. I saw us there with our little boy so in love with him and life that the tears of joy were streaming down my face. (My husbands family are very boy heavy!) I was so lost in the scene that I could feel the sunshine on my back, hear the laughter from our son and I felt eternally grateful for regaining my health. Finally I saw myself at Dr Joe’s workshop in October in floods of emotion thanking him over and over again for changing my life . This was my most powerful meditation yet and as the recording came to an end I was completely astounded by what was to follow…


I cleared the tears from my face and took a second to search for the pain but it was totally and utterly GONE!!! No word of a lie, that uncomfortable, weird, painful migraine sensation had completely vanished! It was like someone had turned a switch off inside of me! I couldn’t believe it and proceeded to sit on my bed for a while longer just triple checking that the pain wasn’t still there! How could this be possible? There is no migraine medication in the world that can stop a migraine dead in it’s tracks! What had I just done?

After thinking about this over and over again the only way I can explain what happened is that I lifted myself out of my current circumstances and environment so much so that my body actually started to follow my mind, which was basking in the delight of the future. I was so there in mind and spirit but my body had no choice but to follow where and what I had become! That’s why when Dr Joe explains that we are all just energy and he gets you to become nothing in no time and no space, this then allows you to come back and create the life you want to live which simply is just a different type of energy. You have the power to create your life and your future! Isn’t that pretty incredible! Think of the possibilities that may await you…

#Mind #Body #Spirit #Visulisation #Power #Meditation #DrJoeDispenza #Myjourney

Change IS Happening…

After doing Dr Joe’s meditations for nearly two weeks now, they are beginning to feel like part of my daily routine. Just like when you wake up and put the kettle on, I wake up and put Dr Joe on! Some days I have managed to feel such emotion I cannot stop the tears from flowing down my face even when the recording has ended, and other days I find I finish with a content smile. I’ve come to learn that some days I will connect intensely and others not so much, but that’s ok as you are only human. However regardless of the emotional response I have or not, I am still reprogramming my brain everyday, twice a day by seeing my life play out in my mind the way I always dreamed it would.

So I’m not going to lie to you, this week has had its ups and downs. However even so, I have seen such incredible changes in myself. I unfortunately had two migraines this week, the first caused by the excitement and stress of getting my hair done. Ok, I know what you’re thinking, it’s hair! (Ladies you understand, right? Our hair is important to us!) After being blonde my whole life I decided that now more than ever was the time to make a change, a big one, which in the end became quite an emotional day. Well I thought, as I’m supposed to be creating a new me in habits, thoughts and beliefs, then why not change my personal appearance to reflect the beginning of this new me and the journey I am on. Plus I’ve always wanted to be a brunette but i’ve never been brave enough to go through with it, but this was the perfect time to embrace change.

So……..Tad ahhhh! Meet the new Christie Jane! After an initial mild panic I have started to love my new locks and the new me!

Old me:new me

Secondly, I discovered this week that unfortunately eating raw cacao powder is not something that agrees with me, and I don’t say that lightly. It really, really doesn’t agree with me! The incredible pain I felt after consuming this took me back to my darker days. As my recovery has progressed, the only way I can describe my migraines changing is that the intensity behind them has weakened. It’s almost like they are loosing their power to fight me nowadays. Well, until this one, which was how I would imagine being hit by a double decker bus in the back of your head would feel like!

Previously a migraine with that intensity would have had me out for a full week, no doubt about it. I would experience three days of the actual migraine, then several recovery days, followed then by a visit to the chiropractor to relieve my tight neck muscles. This would then upset my head for the next two days after the treatment so let’s just round up the whole saga to roughly a week plus. As my recovery has progressed over the years my migraine and “bounce back time” has got a lot better but never EVER to this extent! Now this IS change happening…

With both migraines I took my usual Triptan on the onset day, however literally the next day I was back on my feet and even managed to go for a coffee and wander around the shops with my Mum for a few hours. I cannot explain to you in words just how unbelievable this is for me!!! Talk about progress, I couldn’t believe it myself but it was true! Just two days from start to finish and I was completely back on track! No visit to the Chiropractor needed at all. How could this be possible? I just knew Dr Joe’s meditations were reprogramming my brain to alter the beliefs that I have had for such a long time such as “every migraine lasts about a week”. If I could have a migraine and recover in just two days then anything is possible!

Apart from the migraines this week I had some really good days, and when I say good, I mean really good! The kind of “normal person” days I call them, whereby you haven’t slept that great but you still see friends, go for coffee, attend appointments and not once think about getting a headache kind of day. That for me is a level of good I had never experienced before. I know that the daily visualisations of seeing myself running through my week with the best possible outcome (headache free of course) gave me this confidence that what I had been visualising was of course going to happen. No doubt about it! It took away my anxiety, negative affirmations and worried self talk that would go around in my head on a daily basis, and only leave me with this unwavering faith that I knew everything would be ok!

It’s as I’ve said in my previous blog (Stepping outside of your comfort zone), sometimes you have to take that uncomfortable step into the unknown to push forward your recovery, as it’s so easy to get stuck in the chronic migraine cycle which in the end becomes your identity and that is when it becomes hard to break free. Dr Joe is helping me every day to step outside of my comfort zone, make new memories and form new beliefs, which in the end is changing not only the view I have of myself but who I am on the inside as a person! He is helping me create a whole new identity, a new Christie Jane! Suddenly I feel like there are no limits in life again and I am flying…

#Change #Myjourney #DrJoeDispenza #Meditation #Dedication #Migraine #Healyourself

My fantastic results after only one week of using Dr Joe Dispenza’s meditation CDs!

After reading Dr Joe Dispenza’s awe inspiring book “You are the Placebo”, I was desperate to get started with the actual meditations and try to put into practice all that I had learnt from his book. Whilst waiting in suspense for the CDs to arrive, I spent my time watching endless testimonials on his YouTube channel of how people had healed themselves through his meditations from all kinds of illnesses and diseases. My belief in this man and his teachings only seemed to grow by the minute. After all, isn’t that what it’s all about? As long as you believe in the treatment or placebo, then you see results?

There are two mediation CDs with one slightly longer than the other but very similar in format. They start with Dr Joe getting you to focus on parts of your body and the space around them. This section is to slow your brain waves down to get you into the Alpha state, whereby your subconscious mind is then easier to reprogram. Then comes the part when you are trying to become pure consciousness. You are no thing, no body, no time and are nowhere! The way I picture this, is I imagine myself in the darkness of space and my body scatters into millions of tiny pieces to leave me as nothing other than pure consciousness. In the final part, Dr Joe then asks you “What is the belief that you want to change about yourself?”, at which point I say my belief out loud in my head. He very cleverly then guides you to alter this belief and helps you to emit the emotions that you would feel if this belief wasn’t your reality anymore by asking you a series of inspiring questions. He encourages you to feel intense emotion whilst you envisage yourself in the future defying the belief that you started with. Finally at the end of the meditation, Dr Joe brings you back into awareness, back to your new body and back to the new life you have been visualising. At which point I see the new Christie Jane standing there in front of me and I literally step into her body, and as if like magic, I am the new headache free me!

Now when I started this CD I was telling myself not to expect any overnight results as the book had explained it was going to take time for my brain to make new neural connections and delete the old destructive ones I had created. However, I am honestly astounded at the results I have had in just seven days! On my first meditation I immediately felt such intense emotion, so much so that I had tears of joy streaming down my face! I saw myself in what I would call a movie montage in my mind achieving all the things that have felt so far out of reach over the past few years, and for the first time in a long time, I finally felt proud of myself. This for me hit a nerve as I have struggled during my illness to feel proud of myself in any way as I felt I had failed in life. Since discovering this in my mediations, I now find I can recreate this intense feeling of emotion by simply telling myself how proud I am of myself for overcoming this battle.

I have also played around with trying out different beliefs within my ultimate belief that is “I will never get rid of these headaches” such as:

  • “I always need eight hours sleep otherwise I will get a headache”
  • “I have weak neck and shoulder muscles which causes tension headaches”
  • “I always wake up with a headache”
  • “I will never be able to travel on a plane without getting a headache”
  • “Once a month I will always have a menstrual headache”

This was really interesting as I found the beliefs above didn’t create such intense emotion that it did when I felt proud of myself, however this didn’t seem to matter as I still saw myself rewriting my future and this in turn was changing my beliefs.

An example of this was during my flight back from Dubai to London, mid way my neck and shoulders started to feel stiff and a nagging dull headache commenced, at which point my anxiety started to kick in. I donned an eye mask and pressed play on Dr Joe’s meditation CD, where I pictured myself on long haul flights enjoying every second like any “normal person” could. I then saw myself arriving at exotic destinations around the world completely headache free! And as I stepped into the new “normal me” at the end of the meditation, all my fear and anxiety had simply disappeared as if like magic! I suddenly possessed this confidence and certainty that travelling was no reason to give me a headache.

I have to say out of the two CDs he offers, I found Meditation 2 more powerful. On Meditation 1 you are prompted to alter two beliefs and Dr Joe remains quieter through the middle section of the track. However on Meditation 2 you only focus on one belief and he provides much more guidance through the middle section which I personally found much more effective. To maximise my healing I have also been doing the meditations twice a day as Dr Joe suggests.

As most people with a chronic illness understand, you feel like there is no way out. You tend to go round and round in a vicious circle of negative thoughts that only reaffirm to yourself that life will always be this way. You forget what life was like before the illness and it seems just a distant memory. Now it’s almost like Dr Joe has flicked a switch on inside of me that I forgot existed, and I now know not only can I get back to the old me before this illness, I can create an even better future me! All in all, not only do I now believe that I CAN and WILL heal myself completely over time, I feel in a way, fearless and anxiety free. In this week alone my health has noticeably improved, so much so that I got to enjoy some very special headache free days with my Mum when she came to visit me in Dubai.

So thank you Dr Joe for starting me on this journey to changing my life…


#Healyourself #Meditation #DrJoeDispenza #Freedom #Lifebeginsnow #Believeinyourself